Up at 4 a.m. and I want a scone like nobody’s business.

A quick note off the top of my head at a coffee shop far too early in the morning for a day off—
I’ve slept in my contacts for the past three nights (sometimes out of laziness but mostly on accident) and now I feel like I’m going blind. Last night the fireworks went on for hours. Every year, I feel like it’s what living in a war zone must sound like, only it’s sterile and safe and bathed in patriotism. My birthday was excellent. I feel a bit like I cheated because it felt like Saturday and Sunday were July 4. Two for one special, I guess. Thank you so much to everyone who called and sent me texts, cards, letters and “wish you wells.” Missed calls and full inboxes go a long way to making you feel whole. It’s kind of funny, but it really does mean a lot. I appreciate the love.
I hope you’re all well. Go out and feel the magic.
i am oh-so moody. i.e., feeling rather depressed on this the day before my birthday. while i’d rather just curl up in bed, drink a cup of coffee and read the day away, i should probably go out and have a good time. so i think that’s what i’ll resolve to do. right-o.
Uhhh… so, PS — my birthday is in two days.
FIREWORKS!
Me & The Bad Decisions I Make with my Credit Card
Brand new inspiring tell-all expose/self-help book coming wherever books are sold!
Seriously. Retail therapy is kind of the worst thing ever.
SICK ON SATURDAY
Worst thing ever/kind of cool band name.
I don’t know. I really don’t know.
Maybe it’s the indecisiveness. The illusiveness. The way I can’t ever really nail down what’s going through your head. Like you’re speaking another language. Life is full of ins and outs, and I don’t like sitting on this side of the fence. Every night I string out the worst of all possible conclusions I can reach and hang them to dry. Press them and make sure the details are worked out. Then wear them to bed. It’s no wonder my head is such a blur when I wake up every morning.
“Lies with good intentions are still lies.”

